The idea that we as trusted servants can attract members to service was new to me. When I first heard this concept I was like how am I going to do that? I will never like those guys at Area. All the negative things I thought about myself came to mind and came up with reasons as to why I am not the type of person who would attract anyone to service. In short, I have a fear of what others think of me. For a while I would show up to service events and not say a word. However, God is in charge of my life and gave me a situation where I was challenged by personalities. It caused me some discomfort so I started to work the steps over again with my recovery sponsor, regularly checked in with my service sponsor, and consistently asked for suggestions on how to show up for my service position. By continuing to show up and take suggestions I began to change. I suddenly was not shy about expressing my enthusiasm for being of service. My service sponsor would also teach me how to do research regarding various AA topics and provide insight on how to work with others. The more I learned about our program the more confident I felt. My intention for doing the work was I no longer wanted to feel uncomfortable showing up to my service position but received much more. The challenge that I was given I now consider a gift from my higher power. My fear of others’ opinions has significantly minimized. It no longer keeps me quiet and aloof to others. I am courageous enough to share my thoughts at the microphone. I am also comfortable enough to approach elderstates people with questions. I naturally offer words of encouragement to those around me. The results are that I am having fun, forming genuine friendships, and have more confidence. In my experience, the new way that I am showing up is what attracts others to service.
